Eff My Current Situation.


I will never get her back. And I don't know if I'm okay with that or not. I could always convince myself that I don't need her, again. Yeah that'll work, just like it has recently. [bah]

Psychology is a wonderful thing--when you understand it, you can apply it to yourself. And that is probably what will end up happening, I will successfully convince myself that she no longer means anything to me, although she means the world to me, and numb myself to the point that even the sight or spoken word of her will not affect me. in the slightest way. my heart wont falter. I wont get butterflies. ever. She will just appear as a fragmented exoskeleton of a beautiful woman I once loved. Im seventeen, I shouldnt feel love like this. Shit...it's not even love if its one-sided. 

"Never allow someone to be your priority, while allowing yourself to be their option." -Mark Twain

Soon enough, I'll listen to great authors like Mark Twain. Oh well, whatever, Im ranting...I can tell because I'm using alot of comma's. Comma's are good, they continue something similar, only with small pauses in between, almost like a heartbeat. 

College will distract me soon enough. Only 5 more months, I can do this. 

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