3.04.2009

I dont know if my heart can handle love again.

Literally. Everytime I see girl's name my heart acts like its going to rip out of my chest. causing it to hurt. Very weird, and Bella-esque. But I'm no vampire. 

she should definitely profess this again, maybe then I would die happy:

"i don't know if i'm sad that this is over or relieved. part of me is so angry that i feel so much right now...that i can't be what taylor for some odd reason is to you. part of me is angry because i know that i never would have let you hurt like taylor hurts you. part of me is angry that i didn't just actually do those things i told you i wanted to do to you. part of me is angry that as i write this message, i have to look at your face in that picture above and know that it's impossible to look at you that close ever again. part of me is angry that i pushed and pushed until i had pushed you to the edge. part of me is angry that i'll never know the depths of you like i wanted to. part of me is angry that i won't be able to imagine your face all day and feel such happiness that i'll get to see you for even a small moment. part of me is angry that i'll never be able to lay in your lap while you stroke my hair. part of me is angry that i'll never be able to kiss your neck, your ear, your lips. part of me is angry that we'll never have another tuesday night again.

all of me is angry that you're gone. " -LMN

1 discussions:

KayakMango said...

we all want that. only some of us get it. if you have it, hold on to it. its messages like that, that are our lights at the end of our dark tunnels. they keep us looking forward, knowing and hoping its almost over.