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I dont know what Im doing.
Am I testing my sanity?
My ability to cope with unrequited love?

I know I dont love Lauren as a person anymore...but what we had Im still in love with. I think Im just in love with love. I havent had "love" for a while and when I hear about everyone else's "love" [love being the warm fuzzy feeling with another person, not sex..which it started to sound like...still hate sex though, Ive quasi-decided not to have sex until I find "the one" again...sex/love sucks].