What are we here for?

Ive realized that I have no reason to live for myself.
I benefit from nothing that I do out of pleasure.

INSTEAD, I will live to produce, serve and ruin myself by succumbing
to the desires of others. That's my rant for the evening.

Also, I feel like I will never find the right woman. I choose to believe that I have a higher level of maturity even at my tender age of 17 and because of that I am super urgent to find a fantastic woman that would sweep me off of my feet and catch the fall. I need a woman that has the intelligence level of LMN and the beauty of Jennifer Beals and Dita von Teese combined, with the ability to pursue her goals with ambition and never fault, with the desire to live a passion driver relationship and never let it become routine. She would need to love kids, love women and only me, be my beacon of hope and my backbone but overall she would need to have some uncanny ability to make everything seem alright when its us together. Imagine holding hands or kissing so passionately that nothing debilitating in your life could hinder the way she makes you feel. 

Thats only simplified, thus the reason I cant find her. 

Only four more years and I can meet all the real women :]

A Little Change of Pace: Picture Blog

Libby Rowe is pretty much one of the coolest exhibitioning artists Ive been introduced to as of late. Her exhibit is called "Pink: Learning Feminine" and its pretty out there but her pieces make you look at them and go "hmm, oh i see it".


I would like to think Im ready to let myself feel love or like again but Im still not quite there yet. Numerous girls are catching my attention lately but Im scared to let them hurt me. I would do anything for such an embrace though.


Photoshop is probably the most entertaining software to ever be thrown into my view. This is my good friend Laura :]] very modified obviously haha.

A Recollection on the Mistakes of My Past.

Over the course of this blog the opinions stated reflect only those of RNC, the author of this spectacular blog, and while they are bitter and ill-equipped towards 3 singular girls, collectively The Battleground Scars of My Past, there had also been really wonderful times with every single girl. So carry on, enjoy my smart-ass biting comments and imagine how my life functions through these oh so perfect matches to my heart. 

TMD

-the transgender bisexual with the 9-year old boy haircut that most every girl, straight or gay fawned over whilst no guy ever stepped near her. most commonly known to make promises and then break them easily without any slight discomfort to her conscious. cheats openly and dismisses the events as accidents and then asks for forgiveness repetitively. thinks suicidal threats are the cure for everything and doesnt know when to move on. biggest mistake of my life.

LMN

-the gorgeous, angry lesbian that works in a prestigious hair salon with near a dozen other gay men and women and has a mad obsession with a certain actress. her hormones are raging storms of fury and she is constantly visualizing her fantasy woman. known to jump to conclusions and act out eratically often hurting her current girlfriends feelings. doesnt think rationally, ever, and overreacts about most benign situations and sees herself as the god reincarnate in lesbian, woman form. and all the while i feel the need to punch a wall because of her...i will never regret it, or call HER a mistake and i wish i could have gotten another chance. and STILL DO.

BAJ

-the super dyke of the metroplex, soon to be state champion wrestler, 160 weight class. acts sweet, often repeating the same things over and over, leaving room for assumption that her head is filled with bubbles but as soon as sparked she turns into a mega-bitch. has the audacity to expunge racial slurs from her mind toward her current girlfriend of who she didnt seem to catch onto having a bi-racial niece of whom she loves more than anything in the world. tries but doesnt understand her current girlfriends situation and disregards most of the issues. a disaster in the making. 

Hopefully [BAJ] is my last mistake for a while. Lord have mercy, I would just rather be single.

Oh, prop 8.

Where does one begin to emphasize the fallacies of proposition 8.

Oh the fucking ignorance that is ruminating off of our country right now. I am so infuriated that I dont even know where to begin with this. Prop 8, as all of you should know, is the proposition that the state of California put into the ballot along with the presidential candidates to decide if the already legalized marriage between lesbians and gays earlier this year [May 15, 2008, prop 22] should be banned. 

52.5% voted [YES]

47.5% voted [NO]

Thank you to all those that voted no. 

Victims of the poorly influenced because of faith, need to set aside the cult-like margins that they've set themselves up in and see life as a reality. We [fellow lesbians, myself and our fabulous gay friends] will keep fighting until we have just the same treatment as any other hetero-couple in America, and as soon as the super-structured-conforming-sissies LEARN this, we will be at peace and there will no longer be any need or worry about whether we will "strike again" with some outrageous riot for gay marriage and equality rights. 

AND ASIDE FROM THAT, HOW IS IT LEGAL TO REPEAL SOMETHING ALREADY SET IN STONE ONLY 5 MONTHS AFTER ITS LEGALIZATION? I dont see them doing that to any other proposition that was voted in. I think if our world was free of religion we would all be happy and peaceful with one another, but at the same time we wouldnt have the inspirations for art and drama as we've had in our history. Religious institutions are probably, if not already proven to be, the most pressuring elements that any person has on their life. 

And to top it all off, our super so-called Republican of the senior class 2009 thinks he's going to be clever and give us his poorly planned out thoughts on prop 8 by saying that "prop 8 better be passed because all those fucking homos are stupid for thinking they should get the same treatment as us superior straight, more refined people." There was verbal abuse, throwing of shoes and bitter contempt from myself, and 4 other close friends backing me up [not to mention, these other people are Republican followers and not nearly as upset about Obama's election into office and still believe in equality]. This boy knows who he is, and he knows he's stupid. He always says things that have a sign laying over his mouth saying 'insert foot here.' He needs a reality check.

STOP IGNORANCE.

BAN CONFORMITY.

"yes, we can." -Barack Obama

Election 2008.

So Barack Obama won. Hooray :]]

And boo to all the sour Republicans out there that can only think pessimistically because they're so-called leader with such different proposals didnt win. 

Either way guys, we have a leader, that will either change or rupture our country, just like former Pres. George W. Bush did, and every Republican still stood by him while he sent troops to Iraq...where we havent really accomplished anything yet. 

I cant wait until Obama pulls us out of this recession with a quick hand and steadies every off-balance issue standing idle right now because of our economic downfall. I just cant wait until all the snobby Republicans that have no open minds finally realize that either leader we would have had would have done just as well. No single man or woman can change the world any better than another can, its all a series of steps and how the person takes and plans them. Sometimes it works out for the best, sometimes it fails and we pick up the pieces and reorganize and finalize the goal.

But anyways, congratulations to the Democratic party; Sorry to the Republican party. And dont give up America, bound together we could all fix this. So stop the automatic segregation!!